When you look at something you do not want, your IB, BECAUSE IT IS YOU, is looking at it ALSO. BUT, it is looking at the rockets you launched - and have BEEN launching - with your attention TO it. i.e. your IB is looking right AT what you DO want and experiencing the vibration of it. And when it DOES, you feel that distance between the two vibrations. And as you CONTINUE to look at what you do not want, you launch MORE rockets of desire which makes what you DO want BETTER and since your IB is focused on THAT end of the stick, your IB's vibration goes HIGHER and the distance between your vibration and the vibration of your IB increases and if you KEEP focusing ON WHAT YOU DO NOT WANT, that distance will KEEP increasing because you are launching more and more rockets of desire and making what you want better and better and your IB's vibration is going higher and higher.
When you are in a downward spiral, you are actually in an UPward spiral from the perspective of your IB. Which is YOU!!
When you look at something you do not want, you are looking at [it from the perspective of not wanting it] only one aspect of something. Your IB is looking at the exact same thing but from another perspective that perceives the opposite aspect of the exact same subject matter.
You aren't looking at some "thing". You are creating a manifestation of the distance between your vibration from THIS perspective and your vibration from you're IB's perspective. That distance is created by the thoughts you're thinking ABOUT something. Your IB is ALWAYS saying "Wow! That's awesome!" regardless of how you feel about it from your narrower perspective. As you watch someone "suffer", your IB joins that person's IB and follows its vibration UP which creates distance which doesn't feel good to YOU but launches more rockets that continue to raise the vibration of your IB and increase the distance BETWEEN your IB and YOU. Which is AWESOME from the perspective of your IB but can make your "day" (experience) go more and more to shit as the distance between you increases.
Imagine looking at something and saying to your IB "I hate that." and your IB replying "I LOVE that". So you find something else and say "What about THAT? You can't love THAT!". To which your IB responds "Holy moly! THAT'S even BETTER!!" and you're saying "You have GOT to be KIDDING!!! Okay, let's see...oooh, how about THIS?!?! THIS is RIDICULOUSLY wrong and EVIL!!" and your IB says "WHEEEEEE!!".
It makes perfect sense that you would be more and more at odds with your IB. Or, at least, it WOULD make perfect sense IF YOUR IB WASN'T YOU!!!
Your attention to what you don't want IS the creation OF it, by you and to your precise specifications. It is not the universe's creation of it. There is nothing interfering with your creation. You aren't "asking" for anything, you are creating it using the elements of the universe and the laws that govern them as your raw material and factory.
There is only one way to get what you want and that is to create it yourself and you create with your attention. WHAT you create is decided by the thoughts you think, but the WAY you create is by giving something your attention and "thinking" - or "imagining" - it into your physical experience.
You, from your intensely focused physical perspective, cannot create two things at once BECAUSE you must focus intensely to create in the first place. You can't "create" a solution until you're done creating the problem and no one decides when you're done creating your problem, but YOU. The universe doesn't create, nor does it decide - or otherwise interfere with your decision to create, how detailed and "real" you create it to be or what you CHOOSE to create by what you CHOOSE to give your attention. Regardless of WHAT you are creating, nothing but your own attention is creating it.
You decide when it's "done". You have to make the decision to choose that degree of detail and completion for your problem. Otherwise, you will just keep on and keep on "fine-tuning" and increasing the degree to which it is created.
Your "vortex", i.e. "that which contains everything you want", is not all there IS. Everything ELSE is spinning in readiness to respond to your attention and manifest, TOO. Things you cannot even begin to imagine from the perspective of this intense, physical focus. Things that are not relevant to this, particular, intense, physical focus. Every possible thing, as can be imagined from every possible perspective is in perfect readiness to manifest the moment enough attention is placed UPON it. All of it is spinning around, some in particular vortexes of varying degrees of a possibility that someone physical will "call them forth" and some sort of "detached" for lack of attention and floating around, at readiness to be recycled and put into use at the first call of "attention".
Anyway, imagine that all aspects of everything you, personally and from this physical perspective have decided that you DON'T want is in a personal and completely unique to YOU, "OUT of alignment" readiness to manifest, just like the stuff in your IN alignment vortex. And it is your sifting and sorting that created BOTH vortexes. Each containing the raw material in complete and perfect readiness to pop into existence should you choose to put your attention upon it.
Look at it this way. Imagine the UNIVERSE as one huge vortex in which everything imaginable is spinning, in readiness to manifest. All of your ideas, as the result of all of your sifting and sorting, are in that huge vortex, with your name on them. Now imagine that every idea you've ever had has a color-coded name tag with your name on it. Red for what you don't prefer, blue for what you do prefer and various other colors representing various things on which you have your attention, but not to the degree of intensely focusing on them from the perspective of this physical body - things such as the experience of gravity, planets, stars, beating hearts, rising suns etc. - things you don't usually focus on, intensely, from your physically experiential state, but that have enough of your non-physical attention to exhibit stable, physical states without requiring your physically focused attention.
Now imagine that thinking a thought, in your imagination, - whether of the aspects of something in your physical experience or something brand new and never before seen, it doesn't matter, but you are putting your attention on it and all of the "stuff" necessary to physically manifest it is "brought to attention" and begins gathering and swirling and amassing and taking form and being molded by your continued attention to the details of it. The longer you focus your attention on it, the more detailed the non-physical form takes on until you decide it's done and simply expect it to "be there" and it pops into your uniquely created, physical reality. Whether it is a castle or a "monster", it doesn't matter. The universe doesn't care, not in the way people think about "caring". The universe is the raw material and the laws that govern how it is assembled. But the universe DOES care in YOU caring. Just you. Not some separate "thing", but YOU as the "caring" molder of the raw material..
Just as YOU are one intensely detail-oriented point of focus which is part of your IB - which is a generally-oriented point of focus which is part of source energy - you are ALSO one intensely "CARING" perspective and part of the more generally interested perspective of your IB, which is part of the whole of the universe. So, yes. The universe has a general "interest" (which is a more general state of "caring") in the form of the IB of which you are a part. But, overall, the universe, as "all that is", is simply the disinterested "stuff" and the disinterested laws that govern the movement of the stuff.
At the very tippy top, there is nothing but well-being that doesn't know that it IS well-being because it has never, from its perspective, experienced the absence of well-being. From the generally focused and more "conscious" IB, down to the great suffering of human beings, there IS a recognition of well-being AS well-being that is created by projecting intense focus into physical form where it moves down to "doubt of well-being's eternal nature and prevalence" to "fear of well-being's absence" to the experience of "the absence of well-being" or "apathy". ALL of which can be said to be the universe's consciousness of itself as a "vessel" of well-being that exists as a sort of "sub-directory" of the overall, immovable, unalterable, UNCONSCIOUS mass of well-being, itself. "Unconscious" because "consciousness" i.e. "self-awareness" requires the ability to perceive the absence of oneself which "all that is" cannot do. EXCEPT in compartmentalized portions of itself, such as you and, in a less confined "compartment", as your IB.