Writing always helps me towards more clarity and so here I am trying to soothe myself and make sense of this event.
I don’t listen to the news, but the enormity of this event had everyone around me talking about it. Soon as I open my web browser, I see related news flashes. Last night I was at a family gathering, and there was a newspaper on the dining table where we were going to have our meal, with the front page a wall paper of the pictures of the children who had transitioned. “Have you heard...”, “Isn’t it terrible…” soon as I heard those words I knew what was to follow.
My first reaction was “let’s not talk about it, it’s too disturbing”. Someone who knows me well, and my stance on looking at the negative thought they might chip in at this time and say “how can you look away from this horrible thing – it’s terrible”. How do I explain to you my friend, that I do not wish to talk about it because focusing on it just makes it bigger – I want to diffuse it.
At the time I didn’t know that the perpetrator had taken his own life, so I said “It is terrible for the parents who have lost a child, I hope that they might continue their lives and find happiness. I am more concerned about the poor soul who caused this tragedy and I wonder what brought him to it, and I hope that he will be able to find the help he needs – because it’s obvious there is something missing in his life”. Of course, everyone had to inform me that he committed suicide.
“I don’t want to talk about this subject – it is too up-setting” I said. They understood that and our conversation moved to something else.
I came away thinking, what was the co-creation going on here? How did the 20 children and 6 adults at the school attract Adam whatever his name was? How did his mother attract this behavior from him? It is obvious that he was feeling negative emotion and the act of killing brought him to a level where he his inner being knew that the only way to release resistance was to commit suicide.
Given his past record, was his mother afraid that he would one day commit a big crime? Was her focus on him getting worse rather than him getting better? Was Adam “looking for love in all the wrong places” meaning outside of himself, from his parents and other people? Did other people’s opinion of him matter so much that it took him down the emotional scale?
What sort of co-creation was going on there?
Were these teachers ones who had paid too much negative attention to stories of shootings at schools? Had they been scared that they might be in the midst of something like that. Had they imagined being in an event like that? Were they happy at their jobs? Were they generally afraid for their personal well-being? Did they think that people were not to be trusted? Like attracts like, and so the six would have been assembled by the law of attraction.
What about the children? I must admit, this is the most confusing part. Did some of these children have parents who taught them to be fearful? Did they have negativity going on at home that brought them down the emotional scale? Or was this an agreement of co-creation they had entered into prior to their birth, that they would go forth and be part of an event so big that it would cause wanting for well-being and expansion to take place not only among those around them but also in the community, and not only their community but the whole world. My feeling is that this was a pre-birth agreement between these beautiful children.
Now, my thoughts go towards what should I be doing just now? Where should I put my focus?
I want to wish safety for all. I see the world as a wonderful place where I and my children and others are free and happy. I see the world as a happy place where everyone is happy. I see the world full of color and happy sounds of children laughing and playing. I see the world as a place where there are many more who understand the law of attraction and the teachings of Abraham. I see the world full of love and the magic of creation.
PS: I know I have heard Abraham speak about tragic events many times but I cannot find any suitable clips to refer you to at this time. As I recall them I will add them to this post.