I am a leaf

Guest Post by Jeanne Maher
This is a beautiful piece, written from inside the vortex.  Many thanks to Jeanne for sharing it with all of us. Zehra

I am a leaf, floating down a stream free, happy, unchained, and unconcerned. Bobbing aimlessly on the surface of the cool water, feeling the sun warm me, tiny insects tickle me, logs and rocks reach out for me as I pass quietly by. Sometimes I’m caught and I embrace the joining, feeling only joy until I am freed and continue my journey downstream. Until one day I find that I have merged with the stream who has carried me along on its adventurous path and I am no longer just a leaf…

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I am a stream and I take pleasure in rolling sometimes softly, sometimes furiously over rocks and twigs and fish and bits of glass. I meander at times or become a rapid force, falling endlessly. Or I am an ocean crashing against a shore, or a lake eternally still. It does not matter what form my bliss takes, I have no worries as life goes on within and around me. I bask in the warmth of the sun and give of myself and soon I am no longer just the stream…

I am the rain, falling gently, drizzling, misting, at times pounding ferociously on the earth, loving all aspects of this journey. Washing clean all that I touch, sometimes muddying, sometimes exposing, other times burying. Effecting all that is and will be, languishing here, rolling off there, burrowing deep into the ground to couple with roots and soil and I am no longer just the rain…

I am the earth, calm and quiet, roiling and thunderously loud. I feel all those within me, those who walk upon me, those who fly above me. It feels good to feel good. So good to feel the life, the desire, the energy flowing through me, this never ending cycle of life and wanting and warmth. I reach for more and more and I am no longer just the earth…

I am a tree, standing tall and proud, or broken in appearance, or just beginning to feel the sun on my sprouting limbs. I am home to the creatures that reside in me and around me, sometimes shelter for them, sometimes food. I dig in deeply in pure joy as life goes on all about me, I cleanse and purify and love as I breathe out to sustain all life and now I am no longer just a tree…

I am the air, the gentle breeze, the gale force wind, the bringer of life. I surround all things, gently embracing all that is, stirring life up or calming it down. I flow easily through everything, every being, every aspect – welcomed here, taken for granted there, my pure bliss knows no bounds and no boundaries. As I am called to a physical form, to merge with love and joy I find I am no longer just the air…

I am the human, the sum of all things wanted and unwanted, diverse, unbelievably diverse in all ways, in all forms, in all thoughts. In all the Universe, only I have forgotten who I am. Only I look back in regret and ahead in fear, unable to see with clarity my powerful NOW. Only I limit the purity of the love, joy, and bliss that is me. And only I struggle to remember that which I do not know I know, that all things, all beings, vibrate in an endless variety of frequencies, simultaneously, as One. Yet, as I get a glimpse of things forgotten and begin to understand that I am ALL and ALL is me, I am no longer just the human…

I am a leaf

Jeanne Maher

I am “the mom”, as my children refer to me affectionately, and grandma – without question my most treasured title.  :]  i have also been lovingly taunted as the “cheesiest” person EVER due to my love of old black and white movies with happy, sappy endings, my optimistically lopsided view of life, my lifelong affection for books I can actually turn the pages of  and my obsession with the Sims – go figure.  :]  
There has been a lot of contrast recently in the golden years of my lovely life but through it I found Abraham and Esther and Jerry. Now I am just reaching out to peace of mind and relief because even though I do have other dreams, those 2 feelings are my most focused on intentions.